Around and Around
Have you ever talked to a friend about something you believed and felt like that person had wads of tissues in their ears? Ever felt so irritated by the banter that you were ready to just give up the relationship? Has the Gospel ever gotten lost in an attempt to make convictions clear to someone else?
I’ve learned over and over that the things I say matter. How I treat the people around me matters. It’s never a comfortable lesson to learn. With that said, it can still hurt when someone you love doesn’t disagree kindly or even with logic. Authentic arguments can be exhausting, unproductive, and down-right infuriating.
I want to be gracious and wise in disagreements, being directed by Christ and not my selfish desire to make my points.
This poem was written as a major vent session after a particularly hard and hurtful disagreement with a friend. It was comforting to get my emotions out on the paper and I hope it’s equally comforting to read. Poetry isn’t for everyone, but it sure is fun for me to write when dealing with overwhelming emotions!
Around and Around
The hurt drips like hot oil,
It burns.
I can’t make it stop,
It slides into the crevices of my jagged heart.
Bitterness.
It tastes just like blood,
Salty and rich with determined iron.
It makes my stomach churn with nausea
As I chew on my own words.
I cannot spit out the anger
Even as I ask my Lord to give me something sweeter to eat.
The sharpness of the frustration
Grips my weary soul,
It holds on tight as I repent my way to restoration.
I need rest.
Rest from the interaction,
The constant circling
Around and around we go,
With no destination.
I pray I land on Christ.
I pray I lay my head on His Word.
May I soak my words in honey,
Not in siracha.
May I feel the hurt release its hold on my tongue,
And fill up my heart with Christ’s blood.
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